This submit is sponsored by Zappos however as at all times, all opinions are my very own.
Oh hey there, it’s me! Simply thought I’d reintroduce myself since I’m, fairly frankly, a really completely different model of Kasey than I used to be 4 months in the past.
Kasey 2.0? Or perhaps 3.0 at this level. I did simply flip the large 3-1 so perhaps Kasey 3.1?
I’ve tried typing my “comeback weblog submit” about 1,000 occasions over the past 4 months and saved hitting delete.
I’ve a lot to say & share but had such a disconnect to my very own targets, to my very own keyboard, & to my very own voice.
Images by my lady @the.photographygirls
I’ve at all times liked running a blog & Instagram for the connection, communication, inspiration, & having a spot to share my story in hopes of serving to others as a result of when individuals present #realness, we’re snug to narrate with them & really feel not alone.
I’ve struggled with, “does anybody wish to hear what I’ve to say?” which ultimately, is self-doubt in my very own voice.
Evaluating myself to others which ultimately solely blocked my very own creativity from flowing.
I noticed a quote a number of weeks again that acknowledged “inconsistency in one thing
= doubt in ourselves.”
Take into consideration what number of occasions we’re inconsistent with one thing?
Whether or not it’s health, enterprise associated, or perhaps a relationship.
What fuels that inconsistency? Doubt in ourselves.
Doubt can really feel like a 20lb med ball sitting on our shoulder, weighing us down from our personal highest self.down from our personal highest self.
Doubt that we’ll make a distinction, doubt that we’ll make a change, doubt that my little (however loud) voice received’t be heard, doubt that my very own private struggles couldn’t assist anybody else if I share them, doubt that though I work to make a distinction “behind the scenes” it received’t present, and afraid of what others would say if I share my story.
Then I believe again…Kasey, what number of occasions have you ever confirmed all of those improper although within the final 10 years? But nonetheless held myself again?
I do know that the previous few months have been robust for everybody.
We’re all human & all of us can relate to this sense of the unknown.
For me personally, something out of my management would spark my anxiousness from a brilliant younger age.
After I began having this sense once more in March, when all the things was taken away and I used to be left with simply my ideas, I bought pissed off that my 31 yr outdated self was feeling this manner once more.
Completely different doubting ideas circulated my mind…”You ought to be over this by now…you’re 31!”
Nicely, I’m right here to inform you that I don’t “have to be over this”, however I did must get assist.
I began with a Therapist, that supported me a lot to achieve out to Medical doctors and specialists for an current harm that I had been placing over for years, which then led to exams performed that wanted to be run and eventually a PLAN OF ACTION to begin caring for myself.
I wish to FEEL good. I need to have the ability to educate my courses, share with my viewers, & practice my shoppers with POWER, not feeling damaged.
After I lastly reached out for assist and bought on a plan, my doubt began to shed away.
I can do that.
I’ve at all times been ready to do that.
I simply wanted some assist.
Nicely, right here’s my accountability submit to get again in it, and present up as me.
After I lastly regarded within the mirror, what I noticed was somebody who wanted to step up for herself, not choose herself, ask for assist, GET assist, get a group of therapists & specialists (hiii @sambrownstrength you rock a lot) to educate and educate me, & create a comeback that nobody noticed behind the scenes.
That is simply the opening to many tales I wish to share, & I’ve been slapped within the face proper & left with SIGNS that it’s time to point out up with my keyboard & my very own voice.
I’ve plans to outrun my doubt.
Getting outdoors with MOVEMENT has been key to clear my thoughts to open house for my concepts.
I’ve additionally been loving them as a coaching shoe for cross coaching and tossing some med balls round, as you possibly can see.
I’ve at all times liked Asics for his or her consolation and their expertise and Zappos for his or her superior choices and buyer expertise.
I ended up ordering a “broad” and I used to be nervous as a result of I are inclined to go along with slim choices. I’ll say, I used to be pleasantly shocked with the consolation & additional assist I really feel even with the broad possibility.
I ordered an 8.5 which is my regular shoe measurement, and these have been very true to measurement.
So what’s within the works you would possibly ask?
LIVE instagrams (true to you chats, anybody!?) with visitors that I can’t wait to speak with, extra content material that comes from my coronary heart and keenness prefer it at all times has, & extra simply displaying up as me.
So right here I’m. The comeback is going on…and it could must occur time and again, however that’s okay.
Let’s do that y’all.
Be true to you,